Hey, How Old Are You,Girl!

Who’s here so tricky to cry to get something -sometimes unimportant- you want from parents? Who’s here that has a day bad mood when their surrounding is uncomfortable? Who’s here acting like a baby to face their problem? Maybe I am a case in a point!

‘CHILDish’ become my middle name during last year, maybe.  I still remember what I have done last year when I had difficult arguments with my parents for new laptop. At that time, I asked my Dad to buy me a new laptop because mine was antiquated. But, everyone in home disagreed on my quick decision; they seemed like my naysayers. They thought that I would only spend the money for that matter.

“That microwave still works, stupid”, my brother mumbling.

He always becomes my mood destroyer in my entire life. Nobody was here with me in my side, all of my family opposed my opinion.

After since, I tried to revenge by having no conversation with my Dad, my Mom, and obviously my brother. I was dissapointed in my family. I felt that they didn’t affectionate me anymore, especially my Dad. He used to doing anything for me, but how about now?

The revenges lasted a week until I realized that my reaction was too over. It was no biggie actually, but I seemed to make it more complicated. After that, I grabed my cell phone, had a phone call with my family, to say sorry a bunch, and asked for their apologize. Fortunately, my family had forgiven me.  They suggested that I had to be mature girl, instead of acting like a baby or childish anymore. I listened to them well and tried to understand every single statement they said. I knew that I was bad, then.

I laugh when I remember that story, either you. I always imagine, how if at that time, I never initiated to ask apologize to my parent, may be today, I have worst relationship with them. I realized that I had really bad habit and I want to make a change.

By this year, I want to make my own resolution which will improve my habit. I want to erase my old middle name and change it become ‘wise and mature’. Then, I wanna prove to my family and my friends that I can be wise girl who is always proactive. I’ll avoid reactivity in every problem solving. Surely, I always try to think positively when problem comes.

I will be 17 by next February and wish that my resolution isn’t just black up on white. I know that changing bad habit which I did in long period before is so hard, but I will enjoy the process to catch it. Ain’t about how fast I get my resolution, ain’t about what’s celebration of reaching my resolution, it’s all about enjoy all along.